pain like i've never endured

loneliness like i've never faced

hurt like i've never imagined

rage like i've never had

depression like i've never believed

the things you say shock and repulse me

(and intrigue me and lure me in)

i keep repeating I won't do any of the sort

(but if the situation arose i would be more than ready for you)

my mind is plagued and haunted by thoughts of you

(and i feel you slowly devouring me inside and out)