i wish i could be the girl who turns off her phone when somebody's upset her.
who doesn't check their messages for hours, to make them feel bad back.
i don't know that I'll ever be able to be like that.
i have to know, have to be there to rip myself open again and again to make them pity me, to make them empathize.
i don't think anyone will ever notice my pain if i don't shove it in their face.
i will walk through the door and try so hard not to look back, but ultimately still leave it cracked open.