(1)

In five years' time I'll be dead.
That's what keeps me going.

Oh to be held by my darling
As I fade away...

He told me it's okay

I am eternally grateful
That he understands
Existing is too much pain
For me

I am eternally grateful
That he's mine
& I'm his


(2)

Days blur together,
Time loses its meaning,
Weeks become days,
Days become hours,
Hours become minutes

He kissed me -
Did I dream it?
Was it merely a fantasy
Too perfect,
Too easy
To be real?

He kissed me -
It was real
And it was perfect

Now he's off to adventure,
Across the border,
Sending me pictures,
While my brain tries to convince me
There's something wrong
With us -
Why can't it ever shut up?


(3)

The anxiety slowly seeps into my bones
As my mind keeps projecting images
Of things I never want to see -
Why won't it leave the unknown be unknown?


(4)

And at the end of the day
All I am
Is a hungry, anxiety-riddled being
Only hoping for its next meal
And the moment it all goes quiet

The glue doesn't flow back into the bottle once it falls over


(5)

Why must I speak
And why must people hear it?

Why must you ask
What my words mean?

Why does it feel like the world has collapsed
When I made no promise and told no lie?

I was flustered -
Ennyi kijár,
Még akkor is, ha én kérem


(5)

It's always been you -
Every second of every day
It had always been you

I'd rather hurt here than anywhere else


(6)

Every moment you're not with me
I only miss you


(7)

Burning your skin only hurts
Until you've killed every nerve


(8)

If only there was anything beyond this exhaustion
That I could return to between act 1 & 2

If only human life was so simple
To be comparable to phones

If only the past was the past and the present was the present
And years would stop blurring together, inseparably