i wore your loss with me
i wore your loss to sleep every night
and you didn't feel a thing
you didn't feel a ******* thing
while your ghost lived in me every day
your ghost followed me

i lived alone in a hopeless world
with grey skies that never spoke a word to me
silent skies looking at me with contempt and indifference
and the moon stalking me through the clouds but staring silent, uttering no words

and i couldn't cry out that enourmous pain into nothingness
always alone wandering under grey violent sky searching for the crumbles of everfading light

the world was dying
its hollow heart in the center dead and rotting reality into decorations for my eternal suffering
fabric starting to tear
until i was dead
******* dead at my heart, all hope completely shut down
world, crooked, breaking down at the root, spilling, crushing down on me
anti-everything that knows no lifting

shot in the head
darkness complete down
weird blue light pulsing in some strange ally
stretching across that colorless void
i breath in
again

it was me