I'd like to stop making excuses for my bad behavior
to stop looking for the meaning behind my actions
to accept that i'm not a good person at heart
to stop caring what you'll think of me

I'd like to live honestly
to practice what I preach
to shed the beguiling masks I wear in public
to walk in my truth everyday

I'd like to let go of my past
to stop using it to justify my weaknesses
to realize that, no matter how many pens I use, I can't rewrite it
to free myself of him