i finally found use
for those memories of you

the other night,
hunched over the toilet bowl
stuck in a struggle between
keeping it down
and letting it erupt

one of those situations of
soul searching
of
"side-weighing", if you will

in a moment of weakness
familiar laughter,
a chilling touch,
and a striking scent fluttered to mind

and with wrath it purged into porcelain

tucked in by a flush
followed then by peace

mind finally at hush
maybe now will come sleep