Please never leave me again
In my mind with myself,
Please never let go of my hand
Like I know you have to,
Please stay within my castle walls
Where I need you so desperately

Be the last thing that prevails,
The last thing I am -
Outlive the parasite
As it's outlived me,
Replace it once more with a person

How can you co-exist with my parasite,
How can something so good co-exist
With something that destroys and pillages,
How can my last hope co-exist with my poison,
How can you live by so much pain?

The last thing I want to see is you before I fall asleep
For one final time, before I'm at peace,
I want it to be you that lulls me to rest
In five years' time

How can you want beneath my skin
As much as they all want out of it?
If I opened a wound, would they finally leave
And would you crawl inside and stay?

Why are you too far for my words to reach?
Through a screen and through delay,
Like we're worlds apart,
Waiting for your words is like awaiting diagnosis

I need you
Like a meal needs salt,
Like a pen needs ink,
Like a song needs melody,
Like a book needs an ending -
I need you at my every step,
At my every word,
I need you
To let me breathe
And to make me believe
My breaths are worth taking

You untangle the threads of my mind
Like nobody else could,
Or ever shall do again after you -
You're my only future and my only present,
My only option and my only choice,
You're the last thing that must prevail
When I'm reduced to anxiety and compulsions,
You're the last thing that must stay
When everything else I've given up,
You're the last piece of truth
In my whirlwind of lies,
You're the last bit of reality
I can recognize

I need you beneath my sandpaper skin
So I never have to walk myself home again,
So your words are my words
And my thoughts don't matter
And whatever happens, I'm not crying alone

Once I'm tired of crying
And tired of breathing
And tired of solving
My parasite's thoughts,
Will you let me go
To wherever is peaceful,
Will you let me break
The chains on my wrists,
Will you let me rest
And dissolve into nothing,
Will you let me rest
In the peace I deserve?

I need your voice to echo through my mind,
I need you nearer than humanly possible,
I need you to erase all the things that hover
On silk threads above my marble floor,
And I need you to hold onto everything you see
That looks like a piece of whoever I once was,
And I need you because I am nothing
And if I am to be something, I want it to be you

Will you reside in my ruinous mind?
Can you make it a home, eventually?
If I can't again be a person or a whole,
Will you remember me fondly?

Please don't let go of my hands again,
Please don't leave me alone anymore,
I need you to stay, my hope, my future,
My last few moments of peace