a friend you used to know and a girl you used to admire one in the same clung to memories of time with you where conversations weren't left dead, talk for hours, laugh until stomachs pained and eyes teared up, while now those tears are not joy, but a deep sorrow that scars brought on, scars from things too terrible to put into words. a girl you used to love and a person you used to care for one in the same drew breath from reserves not her own on borrowed time, she held tightly to you, and although it hurt you to be there for her, there was nothing else you could do but cling to the past and she hated it you hated it your shared comfort in each other under uncomfortable sheets shaking hands to skin, tears as you ravaged each other, just to destroy each other some more. a person you used to comfort and now only a shadow one in the same disappeared at some point and you can't even remember when, but you let her go, and she let you go, it left you both uneasy, but at least now you're both free from the shackles of using each other using bodies that barely fit together souls too big for your selves hoping it would be enough to rock against each other using it as a crutch, a means of escape freedom, you clutch it in closed fist the uneasy of her unknowns, in an open hand.