I let the devil take hold of me awhile,
in an embrace so consuming,
I found comfort in its strangulation

I wanted it to swallow me whole,
and send me to the deepest depths of hell,
as I felt that hell is where I would most belong

so I made a deal with the devil,
and I let him take me,
then I saw and felt what hell was,
and I did not have to travel from Earth to find it,
as hell was here for me already

it was here at home, in my own darkness,
without love, without company,
a place merely of solitude

I let the devil take hold of me awhile,
then decided that I could not let this be my truth,
and made the devil let me go