I am hollow and broken
I wonder what it feels like to be whole
I hear spine tingling scrapes across a whiteboard
I see blinding lights, an array of colors
I want to be normal

I am empty and in pieces
I pretend like everything is fine, never a dent in me because I shine
I feel numb like I’m stuck under an iced lake with no escape
I touch the goosebumps peppering across my arms that seem to never go away
I worry that I tarnish everything I touch
I cry as the world shatters around me, piercing me with the pieces
I am frozen and alone

I understand not everything is meant to be, maybe not I after all
I say it’s okay, everything is okay, but I lie
I dream that I would be taken out, that the world would stop spinning, that I will cease to exist
I try to be better, do better but it’s all in vain
I hope to be forgotten, a reminisce of a memory people cannot put together
I am done and gone