I should've seen it
maybe I did
but I didn't listen
came in dressed to the party
as a NEO ****
making **** jokes
NEVER MIND
YOU KNEW
my family was murdered by them
by people
LIKE YOU !!!
I scrame
FAKER
ABUSER
ASSAULTER
I AM NOW
SHREIKING
INSIDE
AGAINNNN
It HAPPENED AGAIN
Now all I can do is play music in my house,
do you understand
every holiday and sabbath of my life
was ruined by a
MAN"S TOUCH!!!!!
FIRST
MY DAD '
than
ALL THE OTHERS !
WHY CAN"T ALL OF YOU
HORRIBLE MEN
JUST DIE
leave us in
PEACEEE
only the
GOOD MEN '
GOOD PEOPLE REMAIN
HERE
KARMA is done.
justice is paid .
THINGS ARE DUE
DON"T BELIEVE
THAT I AM WEAK!
I am the keeper of  the shadows,
I AM learning to be the master of my shadows
everyone says to be scared of the darkness.
BUT I just learned  to embrace
see there is nothing wrong with darkness
it is where we are all from
the womb
MY LILITH is with me
AND if you dare mess with me
I see it
they don't talk about deep healing ,
people think it comes from flowers and angels
but NO
It COMES
from HEARTWRENCHING SCREAMS
CRIES
FEELING TRAPPED
beneath your bed
in the bathroom
cutting out your arms
watching the blood bleed
bleed down your arms
thinking about death all the time
since I WAS FIVE
wanting to grow up
SO FAST,
SO FAST!
SO I COULD ESCAPE
watching shows and books
JUST TO GET OUT!!!!

When you have been in your darkness for so long
you don't understand joy for a while,
but than you learn that if you can feel the pain
the abyss of pain
than you can feel joy too
BUT FOR NOW
KNOW
I have been
BEATEN every part of me
DESTROYED
BUT NOW I'M RISING
AND NO ONE CAN EVER STOP
ME AGAIN
SO I press
BLOCK
on my phone
to all of you
and I wish you to hell!