As I sit here with my thoughts ,
I try to comprehend them.

I realize now , I loved you before I loved myself.
I guess I wasn't looking for a soulmate,
But looking for myself .
Looking for myself to give all the love.
I lacked growing up.

Yet there I go disappointing and bring agony to myself,
I fell in love with you completely , blindly and hopelessly.
There I wasted my love by loving you more than myself.
Ignoring all the red flags , never doubting the foolish faith
I couldn't see my self value but knew only to love you.

All I wanted was love and to be with one soul forever and beyond.
And sadly, your beliefs were different ,
you only loved money and materialistic value
Rather than loving my soul that I ripped off me
Just so we could be soulmates for eternity.
I was another secret for you and you were my another heartache.


I will be lying if I say I forgive you,
Because I can't.
But I am not lying when I say , I moved on and healed myself.
As time pass by and I sit here with my thoughts,
I realized I couldn't give you back the pain.
So I learned to let go, and wished you good luck,
I hope Karma does the rest.