every thing is crumbling and i forgot how to deal
my grades are low and my friends are gone and my parents probably hate me
i always watch the people that i like hang out with the boy that i love without me
my friends are involved in things and experiences and i am not doing anything
i am doing extremely poorly at the thing i thought was my only real talent
i am so out of shape that i cannot walk home without being sore after
my sister yells at me and i get in trouble when i yell back every time
people are getting dates to dances i am throwing anti versions of
and i know that i can blame other things as much as i want as loud as i want
but in the end it all comes down to
me