it's fine, walk away
when you leave i still have her and when she leaves i can find someone else to cling to
but when it is late they are all gone
and i have no one
and that line keeps showing up in my poems but it's true
people don't understand how serious i am about how much i want to quit
i feel like there is a hole in my heart where all my friends used to be and it doesn't make sense because i'm trying harder than ever to keep them in my life
they keep telling me they still like me but the more i ask the more i feel them slipping away
and now they don't want to talk to me in the halls or hang out with me after school
my mom tells me i'm acting like i used to and i tell her i'm just tired
but anyone who reads my poems would know that tired is code for depressed, which is a word i will never use
today i cried alone in the bathroom at school but it was silent because i am so good at crying
i think it is the only thing i am good at anymore