I'm back in that same place
writing my thoughts in my safe space
these days
life's becoming a phase
of stress and chaos that creates
bad moods and traits
and I might as well be in an orphanage cause nobody relates
to the **** that I'm going through
man if you only knew
bout half of the ****
that I let sit
in my brain and eat at me like a parasite
that's why I'm up at night
wishing
I was still  that kid with a lite brite
chilling watching television
Wishing
on the stars that glowed on my ceiling
I use to wish for a bike or a new toy
now I just wish they didn't destroy
that little boy
in a sense
my innocence
was taken and destroyed
life smashed into me like a ******* asteroid
look what they did
turned this kid
into a fraction of a man
they think I'm ok I just hide it the best I can
but at night
I'm all alone and my demons come to fight
that's when I start sinking
into a dark ocean
of emotion
over thinking
with tears in my eyes
waiting for the sun to rise
so the darkness can subside
if the world only knew
what the **** they put me through
friends getting down to a few
she says it's me and you
but I still feel concerned
internal scars from all the times that I've been burned
I hope that your happy look what yall did to me
abandonment issues and ******* anxiety