I see myself in songs
in the beats in the music
its how I feel alive
in the beats
I hear my heartbeats;

Its where I resonate with the world.
Its like sometimes,
I am afraid to truly see myself
because others see me
as weird and so strange,
or so I've been told that anyways.

I've been bullied
so much , since birth
to fawn to accomodate others
to help others see themselves,
without ever  once,stopping to truly see myself

I see myself as a big mess
like a  big masterpiece,
like I don't understand most humans,
they speak the language of small talk
of matrix thinking.
I've been awake for as long as I can possibly remember
I only feel okay and alive when I am sharing my art
my truths , when I am sitting in nature.
Being and Breathing
Living my truth
with others ,
who speak the same language as me
Still hoping and waiting to see that and meet that
in real life.
I will create the music of the art and of my life