I stand on top of the world, an incandescent goddess
Feeling golden, smoldering, radiant
Words flow like melted butter from my lips and everyone smiles around me

The sight of me is enchanting
I have permanent hold of everyone's gaze
I collect their eyes like treasured trinkets, keeping each pair in my back pocket
For as long as I please

I don't just look good, my God, I feel good Indestructible, unbreakable, everlasting
Not even Death himself can touch me

I dance on my perch, elevated
Peering down at everyone below me with a patronizing stare
In the distance, I feel the spark of something coming at me fast
It's creeping up on me
Perhaps to take my immortality?
I try to ignore the waves of unrest lapping away in my stomach

It's upon me now, though, nagging at my feet I feel annoyed at its persistent presence and suddenly everything is red
Far too bright, like a sunset seconds before the darkness of night takes over
Everyone is loud, asking incessantly if I'm okay
And all can think is, what the **** does that mean?
The implications make me want to scream

As the weight of my senses start wearing me down, I close my eyes
I thought I was twirling on top of the world, wasn't I?
But now my eyes are open again and I'm careening on the top ledge of a ***** parking garage
I'm unsure anything is real at all
There's a bitter taste in my mouth where a mouth's worth of various pills come spilling forth from where they were hidden
In the folds of my cheeks and under my tongue
I feel crazed, yet apathetic
I feel remarkably mortal now

I could've sworn I was just invincible, merely a moment ago
I want to feel that way again, but it comes with a price
An inescapable duality
I'm left desperately grasping at it's vanishing trail
And the spot on the ground below me, where know I'd land if I jumped
Starts to look more and more enticing

I'll leap if it means I can leave this all behind If it means can lie in a pool of my own blood, warm like a blanket
If it means I can encase myself in the void
And feel absolutely
Nothing at all.