you tell me that when
you think of me,
you think
"good person."
is that so?
i want to tell you how much
i appreciate the sentiments
or how
you make me feel just a
little less rotten
but the words stay
hostage
inside my mouth.
i want to be good.
i want to be kind,
i want to be holy,
sacred.
i want to i want to.
but this tenderness was forged
in the fire and the fire
is all it will ever know.