you can only suffer physically to compensate for your mental health for so long
the most challenging truth that i have learned is that if you wish to love another or wish to commit to healing others, you must first heal yourself. once that is admitted, the hardest part is already over. as a good friend once told me on a cold january night — it is now all about the afterglow — where you will then see yourself in a worldly point of view rather than a singular broken soul.