she won't say a single accursed word to me, those angelic lips won't even curse me out. I think I'm upset but ?? it doesn't really matter. I've still got her black lace ******* hidden away in my second place in the 800 meter relay trophy: metaprize. they still smell like she tasted; I still know that she was fantastically insecure about her gorgeous *****, so much that she spent the majority of her summer researching labioplasty under the guise of a newfound interest in cosmetic surgery: her parents would never understand. I still know she takes deserved pride in how her deltoids flex beautifully in her mirrored closet doors with her hands on a boy's chest, not mine any longer but that's okay, as she rides him not like a cowgirl but like a demanding coach, like a kid freed from training wheels, like the Hell's Angel of epifemme ***. I still know she's the best thing that ever happened to me and I still know that I ****** it up. I still know I loved her and I still know I love her. I still know.