that was the night where I watched it fall
the sand was bothering me and you yelled for some reason I can't remember, and your words cut right through my chest
I wanted to pull you close and say I was sorry
calluses exposing me
and you said I was too beautiful to keep doing this to myself
you said I had to stop
and I couldn't understand why because it was not your problem, I wasn't hurting someone you loved
when you looked at me you seemed really hurt
you said you loved me for the last time
and I was sorry to disappoint you again but my chest was too tight for me to put it into words
but when I cried you forgave me again, you always did
and I would confess my secrets while my heart belonged to someone else and you were there, but I took it for granted
I always did
the wires in my brain never let me do things right, but we all know I should be done blaming other people for what I do
ad nauseam
I always do that
I wish I was someone else