My feet are blistering cold
The depression reared its ugly head
I can't move at all
And I wish that I was dead

And I know its just a phase
But its hard to not think its fate

Sometimes I think its Karma
For all that I've done wrong
And not these ****** up chemicals
Just writting all these songs

And I know its just a phase
And I wont live forever in this state

For a moment's reverie
I remember that midnight kiss
Underneath the faded city stars
But the memory's remiss

Cause I can't hold at all
The good I can recall

There's yelling in the background
A mumble to my ears
My heart starts beating faster
As it hieghtens all my fears

And I know that its just ghosts
In my head playing host

I'm so tired and so lonely
Best if I don't go out
The winter's cold
And it's bitter bite seems to shout

When will my soul heal?
And will I ever escape this hell?

Time to start faking
A smile for my dears
And let the music take over
Everything I hear

And smile once again
Despite all of my sins

Cause redemption comes equal
To all those who ask god
And forgivesness in our hearts
As long as it is sought

Forgiveness is just the start
But a stillness in our hearts

I wish so many days
That I had a deeper faith
And I wasn't so **** lonely
On these lonely days

So I pray I'll be okay
Maybe an answer will come today

For now its just silence
But as long as I believe
I can stand another day
Instead of take my leave

That's all I ask of God
As long as it is sought