there’s a desire inside me craving warmth but only frost on the bones hold me again i hate the lonely feeling i don’t want to feel ice in my heart i want to feel a presence next to mine insomniac eyes and blue fingers empty plates on the desk i can’t leave my bed i can’t feel my body i miss you i miss the way i’m supposed to be to feel alive again is the holiest honor to leave my bed is all i needed but i’ll sit in silence for another few years until hospital beds consume me whole i’ll let them hold me again just like you used to