A tool used to block my tethered emotions
I’d close my eyes to dive right in that imaginary ocean
And the deeper I’d dive
The more I feel alive
The less I cry
Until it’s time to open my eyes

In my dreams I either wear my heart on my sleeves
Or live out my wildest fantasies
But lately it’s all been dull
As if the movie screen torn behind my skull
And I don’t remember much
Except the feelings I carry through a day with such…
intensity
Leaving hints for me
As I go through the day
Attempting to dissolve the feels that get a way

I use to hang my head low
And have eyes that move slow
With tears on the verge of sliding down my face into an unknown
Walking around feeling every hand that tortured me
Each day fills me with scorching heat
As I walk around engulfed in flames
That take me away right down the very etchings of my name

Some days you seen
Least it’s what you said to me
When you could see depression
Where my hearts in recession
But it was months after we met
My chest plate in reset
Over a girl I could say I’ve only just met
While I’m resisting you and the pain will only set