Dec 2022
I now relate my sorrows to intense flames
they were once so chilling, numbing me till I forgot my true name
It was like walking through a blizzard
Knowing your body would collapse down in your shivers
Remember, that was when everyone around felt like a snake that slivers
And the wells of my eyes no longer ushered rivers
A time where each step felt like a million miles
And everyone said the destination would end in smiles
They lied.. they lied
I sat in my tears and constant sighs
Forever questioning why
Like I was abandoned by the father in they sky
Because they said it would always get better
But instead of the cold, I now feel the rise of liquid making my body wetter and wetter
Everything festered
Bottling my emotions I thought to be clever
But now all I see is a wide deep dark ocean
Normally blue but tinted with my emotions
My deepest devotions
And seem to follow the same process of erosion
Picked up by the wind and water
The materials within worn away leaving a shell of a daughter
Walking through the sea
And no one could see me
The last glimpse of strength dropped me below where once stood my feet
Have I reached defeat ?
Grasping the water all around
Gasping until I no longer make a sound
My inner me drowning
My outter me profoundly
Intrigued in how I could live the way I feel
Knowing it’s no way to live in death even though the feeling is very real
Now everything relates to flame
An intense inferno that will soon drive you insane
Because fire can be defined in many ways
Determination, confidence, sorrow, self worth it could change any day
Endless days of heat enveloped the house, trapping the inhabitants inside.
As if you were ignorant to the fact that flames only grow not subside
Endless days of heat
Flames that once consisted of a sweet treat
But evolve into an intense scorch where my being meets
Within this tragedy where does one retreat
Fire and ice
In my reactions what could be considered wrong or right
The coldness of going numb
The feeling of nothing as I touch my fingers to my thumb
I never thought this feeling could be topped
Until finally, the chill stopped
they were once so chilling, numbing me till I forgot my true name
It was like walking through a blizzard
Knowing your body would collapse down in your shivers
Remember, that was when everyone around felt like a snake that slivers
And the wells of my eyes no longer ushered rivers
A time where each step felt like a million miles
And everyone said the destination would end in smiles
They lied.. they lied
I sat in my tears and constant sighs
Forever questioning why
Like I was abandoned by the father in they sky
Because they said it would always get better
But instead of the cold, I now feel the rise of liquid making my body wetter and wetter
Everything festered
Bottling my emotions I thought to be clever
But now all I see is a wide deep dark ocean
Normally blue but tinted with my emotions
My deepest devotions
And seem to follow the same process of erosion
Picked up by the wind and water
The materials within worn away leaving a shell of a daughter
Walking through the sea
And no one could see me
The last glimpse of strength dropped me below where once stood my feet
Have I reached defeat ?
Grasping the water all around
Gasping until I no longer make a sound
My inner me drowning
My outter me profoundly
Intrigued in how I could live the way I feel
Knowing it’s no way to live in death even though the feeling is very real
Now everything relates to flame
An intense inferno that will soon drive you insane
Because fire can be defined in many ways
Determination, confidence, sorrow, self worth it could change any day
Endless days of heat enveloped the house, trapping the inhabitants inside.
As if you were ignorant to the fact that flames only grow not subside
Endless days of heat
Flames that once consisted of a sweet treat
But evolve into an intense scorch where my being meets
Within this tragedy where does one retreat
Fire and ice
In my reactions what could be considered wrong or right
The coldness of going numb
The feeling of nothing as I touch my fingers to my thumb
I never thought this feeling could be topped
Until finally, the chill stopped
