I'm on the corner of a street my feet know how to navigate well
From many times Ive traveled here to scan the faces in the crosswalk
In the beginning I avoided this place in hopes the sickness in my stomach could cease for a little while
But as time went on the days became lonelier
And on those days I wandered here
So I could feel nervous again
Longing for my heart to catch in my throat when I see his lips
Or his nose on a different face
Hoping that the sound of your voice will float into my body
and bring me back to life once again
But Ive had no luck so far
So for today I tell myself
"Rest now."
And forget about the tireless search for a familiar smile
When I settle on his eyes I'm mercilessly tossed away into their oceans in ways that I never thought possible
Reality slips away
Leaving nothing but my tunnel vision of him
I race through the gardens of his mind and see
Where I had once broken off a piece of myself
And hidden it inside of him
A piece of me I knew would not be forgotten forever
But that I might not ever be able to find
I'm not expecting to come face to face with so suddenly
And I'm thrown into his orbit once again
My resolve disappears like his cigarette smoke
For that moment I am sixteen again
Catching his gaze across the lawn
The color of his eyes so indicative of mine
His insides are so vulnerable to me
When he sees me
I know he finds the piece he had buried inside of me too