even typing that
my throat has ***** bulging and balling up
though i'll save the explanation
for MANY future poems

she was right
yes
i'm older, and i like my name

1st grade was rough
what with the sarah's and the emily's tickled by their sweet coincidence
where's my twin?
no one else named their little girl an obscure male name in the 90s??

though moments ago
as i chose a fake name
for a place to scream into a crowd that will never acknowledge me
i found
i like my name