I have so many ******* regrets.

I am crushed under the weight of it. Crushed.

I learned how to feel nothing. a waking nightmare of nothingness. With a known tsunami of sadness just beyond the walls, keeping the feelings at bay.

But you smell the saltwater in the air.

I'd like to get drenched.

Wash me away.
Take me away.
Take it all away.
Leave me with nothing.
Leave nothing.

Which will be far more than the nothingness I feel.