i hold onto
the way your eyes light up when i call you darling,
how wide your smile looks when i kiss your cheeks,
and how soft your voice gets when you worry about me if i don't sleep well,

but the thought of losing you

makes me feel

so

afraid.

so the second you turn away i get scared i have to wake up from this dream.
and when you say there's nothing wrong i have to force myself to not worry.
and although i'm patient a chill down my spine always tells me that i'm just awaiting another letdown.