i think of you in times of need
you're in my dreams and possess my unconsciousness
my dependency has a hard time detaching from you
and i wish i could tell you that i don't mind waiting at red lights together
i'm aware of limits and distance and other constraints on our leisure
being civil, private, tender
leaning back and you are already behind me
my shoelace wrapping around your fingers
a home created wherever we step
hypotheticals and desires pouring from our mouths
i don't believe in marriage, living on through children, or making memorable career accomplishments
but i think of what i'd say in my vows to you
i say this with positive connotations - i could never marry you
i wouldn't want a humanistic permanency to establish eternal feelings
if i could meet you in another life where i didn't have so many bad things happen to me
i would do it in a heartbeat
but knowing that all the bad things lead me to you
i could do it all over again