Metallic thoughts crumpled against my mind
No relief do I find
Horror scenes of my past, present, and future
Making my pain seen and unseen
I want to be be free
I want to be protected
I have burned every bridge before
And I can’t wait to light the match now
The escape fantasy that always results with a bullet through my brain
I want the pain to end
Sublimated infrastructure of my slavery within

No hope in sight
Only feelings and thoughts harming me
Only mistakes and comparisons cannibalizing me
Ego won’t subside
Ego only hides my true identity
Angry and selfish always seem right alone
It comes off of me like a rancid fragrance
I have to find the futile solution
Shame and guilt loops always leading back to my hell
So I stay away to keep my hidden pain from hurting myself or others
I get rid of the splinter by cutting off the my arm
I spite the face by cutting of my nose
And no one cares

As I die here alone and watch my life force leave my body
I am surprised by the end
I am startled by the un-attached truth of what death really is
Trapped in the next realm regretting what I have done
Too final to change now
Am I alone here?
Was I always alone?
Can anyone help me?
Does anyone hear me?