sometimes when i talk words just come out and i laugh because when i write stream of consciousness it just sounds like a fever dream
and then i see the flickering in the corner of my eye and then i hear my name
not the one i want to hear
the other one
and nobody said it and everyones still
and this isnt poetry the way the ones i love write poetry
they put words together in a way that sounds good and makes you feel
i put words together so i can understand them myself
i want people to read my poems because i want to be understood
but everything just leaves me in the dirt
i dont want to see it
i dont want to see it anymore