I feel like a prisoner in my body
Like I’m decaying from the inside out
I barely remember what a deep breath felt like
Because I find that lately
Im drowning with every breath
Im sinking with each movement
Im losing my memories
The bad ones even the good ones too
My Mind is full of static
the silent kind
the silent unforgettable kind
I’ve lost myself in the sea of pain
And I’m sinking to the bottom
But
The more I sink the more peace I feel
I feel the weight of my world on my chest
The more I give in the less weight I feel
When I give all
And There’s nothing left
Not me
Not my memory
i feel true bliss in that moment
to be freed of the torture that is existing with this weight
With this pain
i feel like a prisoner
In my body