my heart feels heavy again
weighing me down & stopping me in my flow.
i hadn’t realized it had gotten better
it felt like there was suddenly a ladder to climb up from my dark hole i had fallen in,
and now i’m so grateful for the time in between.
was it because of the summer?
was is the fact i finally confided in someone?
after that improvement came the excitement for something new.
a new period of experiences, challenges and growth.
but where has that gone now?
i am now suddenly back in my old headspace - the ladder has disappeared again.
all alone in my dark hole.