She finds her strength in the dark. She loves the silence and the feeling of being the only one left awake. She smiles at the comfort of being wrapped in darkness yet in the night, her demons come out to play; to tug at her heartstrings and mess with her head. It's a battle with herself. She struggles between dreamy thoughts and fighting back tears between thoughts of the future and her horrible past dragging her back. She's alone, though it feels like a war with everyone engaging in combat inside of her but she lies in bed with this thought in her head: that she'd rather battle herself than have to face anyone else.