without him i feel so lonely but maybe that makes me my own victim of the patriarchy that i can't stand and hold my own without a man's validation
or maybe that's just a symptom of my lack of self-esteem
maybe those are results of my own shortcomings
My initial thought is 'how do i get him to come save me?' even when i know he's the one i'm mad at
i'm not strong enough never have been to stand on my own to have my own back i always need someone else's reassurance and i think they always bet on that
when do i learn to become my own person and stand up even when everyone else is laying flat?