I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss when my days were so low The only attachment I have with those moments is when you come and go My agony my overwhelming tendencies to rethink and overthink And my screen then glows your name to bring me from the brink Of my own destruction And then I backtrack and face facts Cause you may only want me for seduction But all the times you eased the torment oozing from my body At times I wonder if you had a clue or if you looked at me odly One day I was sick of it all Returning to a place where it seems all problems could be solved You needed something I’d never hesitate to give But you noticed a switch in aura maybe you sensed the low willingness to live Either way I sat With my red beats and a raging mind at that A few hours past and my phone glowed.. once more As if you could top the days seething roar And I slide to the right You shine like the moon in the pitch black of night To open your mouth and ask if I’m alright If I had plans tonight And you seemed kinda sad Imma scoop you hang tight The ride filled me with jitters With my mind racing a mile a minute but refused to be a quitter But I notice that your care to let me sit while my thoughts flow like rivers And then begin to talk to ease the mind of the sinner Your voice sweet and smooth Like the string of a violin or the feeling of blues In a single night You took out every thought memory and demon I planned to fight With songs and conversations With closeness removing my hesitation I’m getting closer and closer All with the same fear she’ll knock my heart over Still you’ll never know what you meant to me And I’ll never know what we meant to be
I get frustrated with the content of my writing but then I realize that it helps me release let go and get over what my mind tries to keep circulating in my head . I have moments where I feel like I’ll never get over it and moments where I don’t even care cause what’s the point to. Constantly shifting through highs and lows it’s agony.. but what happy writer do you know ?.. better yet what happy artist you know ?