I always had a way of romanticizing my life Which sounds really lame and probably A little childish But I didn’t leave my dress up shoes behind When I started my period or Grew into a new body In fact now saying it out loud I don't think I could leave behind those Pink, plastic Cinderella shoes I mean honestly Just that intangible item makes me think That ill never really GROW into who I really want To be And it's not that I'm trying to victimize myself for Making the choices that I made See I gave up my innocence the moment I let a man undress me Who would never be my knight in shining armor in Fact he wasn’t even a frog Or much of a charmer he was the epitome of my Self doubt And thats where those fairytale ending got it all wrong
"The Princess Saves Herself in This One" Is a nice title but I don't want to save myself Because if I fall while doing that Im afraid the cement won’t catch me - Like seriously I struggle to just put a book Back on the shelf And my apartment is never neat and at the same time I call myself a clean freak I feel like my head runs a million miles an hour And at the same time I cant even decide what time of the day to Shower And speaking of that don't get me started on my workout Routine I have almost an entire novel written in my Head about how I want to be seen And ill never be seen like those Girls in the pictures "You're losing weight" But "Honey you just look sicker" I want to scream and cry but at the same time Be up at 6am to go work at a job That I physically cannot stand My rings never close But hey I'm always on time Because maybe if I get there early I can go run and hide In the back where nobody will see me Because I don't have Cinderella shoes or a Gucci bag To carry at my side I have ***** converse sneakers that I wear everyday And half of the time I just want to give up Because if I catch myself in the middle of a crowd I need to know how I'm going to get out Or else I feel like I will crumble In front of everyone around me
And thats not the way a lady should act You need to keep your chin up and Arch your back You need to Present yourself well and always smile Because its unattractive To be "CRAZY" And you ask me why I'm hostile? And make sure you run that extra mile Because if my thighs touch while I walk The knight in shining armor will have too much grab Be sensitive and kind and for Gods sake Hide that flab And listen those Converse sneakers need to be retired Because in the eyes of a proper woman Those would never be admired I guess this doesn’t really sound poetic right? But it would just be so be pathetic if I didn’t write About that girl that I think about Who played dress up everyday And wonder how I let her slip away
Because I know theres nobody really there to save me Im not someone to be pitied I was Handed a silver spoon the moment my mother Took her last push and Let me into the world as a proper lady And another day will start and maybe just maybe It’ll be the day that I throw out all the chocolate in my cabinet And not spend 40 dollars on drug store makeup To make me feel more compassionate About myself and the little girl who’s dad told her she was beautiful everyday Maybe it will be the morning I can look in the mirror without dismay About how my stomach sticks out just a little farther than I want it too
So thats why ill keep romanticizing my life Ill keep telling myself that a morning routine will fix all my problems And ill stop reading all the magazine columns About celebrities that I really don't even give a **** about
Maybe when the sun rises tomorrow I won’t care about how many calories I eat Or switch out my bread to whole grain or wheat Like really maybe I'll finally clean up the crumbs I keep stepping on every time I walk into my door To remind me that who I am is so much more Than a pair of ***** converse shoes That ill never throw away because I don't want them To to waste in a landfill where my pink plastic Cinderella shoes probably still lay
And I think its funny that more than ever I can rearrange words in a sentence to make myself sound More clever and cover up the hurt That I might feel for not being the brightest and best and no ill never forget those little tuts and my dress And the knight in shining armor can finally see That his princess wears ***** converse shoes And maybe then I'll finally feel pretty I don't need to be what everyone says I should be Because truly theres bruises on my knees From falling so ******* the cement by myself And I promise I finally put that book back on the shelf But for now I just want to lay down on the couch And not think about my little smooch pouch Ill never be what society wants to see But the little girl In cinderella shoes Will choose to be happy For now and Until tomorrow Ill romanticize my life And stop wallowing in self pity and