I am drowning. Fire licks my lungs, anvils sit in my stomach. Fingers snake around my wrists pulling me down. Chains clink as they tether themselves to my ankles. My throat is being crushed by that monster. My mouth is covered. My watery tears are enough to overcome this. I cannot scream. I cannot cry. The bags in my eyes grow deeper. Darker. I am a shell of what I was. I cannot see what is in front of me. I can not see what could come. I am drowning.
"I'm fine. Just tired." Exhausted. I smile.
Depression is a real monster, and I hope everyone out there has someone to talk to it about and we're not all stuck in the same "I'm fine." response.