i guess I deserved this
not sure why
but every time you cross my mind
the anger comes in and it swells up inside

it's like an infection really
one that takes determination
to get rid of
but how do one removes it,
when one feels uneasy about?

what i'm trying to say is this
I can't contain the guilt you've left me with
neither can i contain
the feelings that has been evolved

honestly you're not to blame
because I feel like i'm the reason
that caused this all

i'm sorry if it took the best of you
for it left you with nothing temporarily
and i gained something
receiving happiness that isn't deserved

now i'm just living with a guilt
an addiction you left behind
with words you said
spoken and unkind

this is it
a solitary mess
I can never escape this fate
neither can I leave its side

i hope you're happier now
to see me so ill
you belittle me with words
and i'm just engulfing it all in