there was never anything to believe in to begin with my faith is a delusion visions to erase my mind distraught and at ease deep confusion here I am again, sulking in this great despair in my dream we named her Adela, and I remembered a reality before that Imagine dreaming of a daughter unborn… visions of her crying in your stomach… to feel that… to feel it all Part of me remembered that I discussed that with you (my love) A glimpse of her face My universe changed, it’s always too good to be true… my longing resurfaces when I browse through our photos, a broken journey I never feared loving too much Give myself away to see this through Give myself away through honesty Repercussions out of thin air Dreaming with you always Don’t want the memories to fade away I want to remember what it feels to watch you enjoy a meal, sweet little moments that help me sleep I don’t want to forget, but I can’t take it Crippling sensations It’s been a long day, it’ll be a long week… Month… year… shattered dreams My imagination runs wild when I think of the possibility of us… Intentions gone to waste… time I’d never give back for a trillion gazillion times 4 plus infinity dollars… I’d take an hour with you in my arms over a life where I never met you… so I wouldn’t feel this way… this… broken… Though the pieces are scattered… I must know I’m whole Misconceptions will destroy me…. To believe she is gone To be a ghost in this world… my love I think you’re gone… What’s a lasting love I’m going to end this one here Imagining what it would be like to be laughing together My world… senseless Little memories that’ll last me a life time… Happy knowing I can love someone this way… even if they don’t want to love me back I must I will… i hope it isn't a crime to long for the only truth i want to believe you