Every day of my life is spent
Waiting
Waiting for them to realize
Waiting for her to turn around
Waiting for him to come back
And it's not as if I'm not used to it by this point
I can put up with the waiting I've done it my whole life
All six thousand, eight hundred, and thirty three days
I just don't know how many more will be spent waiting for the day
The day that my mother gets sober
Waiting for the day that I feel safe
Waiting for the day when i don't have to wait anymore
When I can just be me
Truly and freely
Without fear, without remorse, without regret
Spending time with those I don't have to wait around for
Putting the past behind me, where it belongs
And looking to the future, not waiting for anything
Just content
Holding out for something better than this
And so I wait
And wait
Gods know how much longer but I can do it
After all, it's all I've ever known
And for all I know, it's all I ever will