I flip the coin
heads I jump
tails I step down
I know its silly to leave my life up to a flip of a coin
but what else can I do
they tell me its silly to **** yourself
over people and lies
over hating yourself and your life
they say its silly to want to die
because to them our life looks
perfect
and they say the words,
'lonely in a crowed room'
make no sense
but if you have grew in my skin
and looked at the world as if you are a viewer
or if you felt no one wants you around
you understand
that those words are one of the most truthful things you could ever here
and when they say,
'the mirror doesn't lie'
you believe it
because what you see is
someone that you want to die
someone who you have tried to **** for who knows how many years
and as the coin drops
I see what side faces up
yet I still jump