I cut last night
something I never do

now, anyways
I never cut

an old feeling came
I felt weak

nail digging didn't justify my emotions
I went for something sharper

a razor
5 blades

an arm is too obvious
I like to hide

I saw my hip bone
emerging from my skin

an invisible X lay across
waiting for me

I dug the razor in
pulled up quick

a chunk flew
blood surfaced

once more I dug
once more I bled

standing in the shower
water running down me

red
what I felt and what I saw

relief filled my mind
never regret

I began to smile
victory struck over me

maybe I will cut more often
I love this inner feeling

do not judge
or simply do not read

the pain brings the calm
it makes me feel free