i have no name
i am a girl you once knew—
who stained white roses red with my blood,
the one who sang you silent songs
but even through desperate measures
you never seemed to want to respond at all
yet my heart refused to be daunted
(why did i let myself be taunted?)

you looked through me as if i don't exist
although then, i had a name
with the slightest touch of your skin on mine
or the shadow of a ghosting smile on your lips
you stole the breath straight from my lungs
and pumped your poison through my veins
but when you've had enough
you tossed me aside like crumpled pieces of paper
like endless drafts written before a poem is done

we forgot our parachutes before we jumped
now it's too late to do anything but
try reaching for each other as we fall;
but your eyes are closed as if you want to die,
so my fingers retracted and my heart
plummeted down even lower than the ground

you didn't even bother saying goodbye;
or apologize for killing me for the sake of yourself

so now i have no name
i am a girl you once knew—
the one who held your hand until the end,
the one who used to be someone but
threw her identity away for you,
you; who never bothered remembering her name

(no, you never knew me at all)

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