now, i have realized that i have been avoiding listening to Arctic Monkeys since we stopped talking as if i am trying to run away from the things that makes me think of you.

i run away from our songs,
                                     our movies,
                                            and our dreams.

especially, i run away from myself.

i no longer remember myself as the sweet and passionate girl that you loved once. rather, i am cold and heartless like i've never been in the past.

it almost feels like i’m carrying a stone instead of my heart. i am not sure if i’ll ever fall in love again.

as Céline said, you made me feel like if love wasn’t for me.

i would never forgive you for that unless you give “myself” back to me.