My room went askew
Several months ago
And today
I put on my music
Turned it up loud
And put it back together
But certain songs
Came along,
Pounded in my heart,
And for a moment I fell apart
Music too loud to hear my sobs,
Too loud to hear my screams,
Too loud to hear the crashing
Of things I threw.
But then I stopped.
I crashed to my knees.
My scarred,
bleeding knuckles
Fell to my lap.
I collected myself.
Reorganized.
Put it all back together.
Music too loud to hear my sobs,
Too loud to hear my laughter,
Too loud to hear the steps
Of my unchoreographed dance
But loud enough
To learn the mess
Was not in my surroundings.
The mess was always in my mind
My mind went askew
A long time ago
And today
I put on my music
Turned it up loud
And put it back together