I have a bad manner of repressing.
of swallowing my feelings whole,
because they start as a lump in my throat and stay there
for days, weeks, months, until I either swallow them whole,
or they get the best of me.

The best of my,
"I'm just tired,"
of
"I just need to get through the week,"
of my
"I'm just not feeling up to it."

"feel it," I whisper to myself,
because feeling is much better than repressing for months at a time,
feel the moment, and control the emotions
before the emotions control how you feel.