i have something to tell you,
something that's been on my heart for so long and i desperately need you to hear it.
God is telling you to come back.
come back home.
you spend so much time fighting against Him, that you miss out on the fact that He's been fighting for you.
of course there are struggles and pains in this world, but Jesus said, "take heart, for I have overcome the world."
so take heart, and come back home, because you will restlessly search for your belonging, that is found only in Him.