I came to visit you
Wearing the dress you thought
was __.

I was looking for recognition
in the **** hole of expectation
you never showed up
like a deflated balloon
I was popped and thrown away
I should have expected this
I'd like to think you were afraid to
or maybe your were frantic to
but couldn't find your keys

I had sweat on my brow
I wanted to tell you everything
but somehow
when I'm around you
words spill out
like *****
none of them mean anything
like last nights dinner
being regurgitated
into your lap
it is all irrelevant
and disgusting

I mumble and trip over my own sentences
and you don't seem to notice
I just want you to catch me
or tell me to stop with a kiss
anything
would be appreciated